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♥kino ([personal profile] kinoface) wrote2017-03-13 01:09 pm


→ Currently in week 11. Lentl is lime-sized and has a full set of organs, plus a gelatinous skeleton and the beginnings of nails and hair. It's hard to tell when I'm upright, but when I'm lying flat on my back, I can feel where my tummy is starting to round out.

→ Last week I started panicking because my cramps were happening more frequently and, more importantly, my nausea and food aversions went away very suddenly. They're supposed to go away around 13 weeks but I was only 10 1/2, at which point it can be a sign that important pregnancy hormones aren't at the levels they should be, i.e. impending miscarriage, so I was getting really worried in the days leading up to my next appointment. The night before the appointment, I could barely sleep because I kept having the same nightmare over and over again. But I'm fine, and Lentl is fine, and I got to hear the heartbeat (!!!!), and the doctor explained that sometimes symptoms just go away for a while. And, of course, now they're back with a vengeance: was super nauseous last night, almost couldn't handle the mere sight of my dinner, am back to barely being able to keep my gingery prenatal pills down, etc. Good times.

→ Been getting a lot of headaches, probably due to dehydration. I've been buying juice boxes as a way to get more fluid but mostly I'm trying to drink more water. It's just so damn hard.

→ Speaking of things that are so damn hard: I MADE A DENTIST APPOINTMENT. UHHHH. I have an irrational and soul-sucking fear of going to the dentist. Like I sometimes have nightmares about all of my teeth falling out, and recently a friend of mine chipped one of his front teeth and I could barely look at him -- not because I was embarrassed of/for him or anything like that but because all I could think about was the thought of it happening to me and then having to deal with it. I realize that's pretty silly but what can you do!! Anyway I have a fucking toothache that I've been ignoring for a very long time but now that I have Lentl I don't want to risk getting an infection sfdksjdfhsjkfh so I CALLED AND MADE AN APPOINTMENT TO SEE A DENTIST FOR THE FIRST TIME IN OVER A DECADE OH MY GOD???? I feel like I'm gonna break out in hives just thinking about it, and the one thing keeping me together when I do think about it is that because I am pregnant, I'll only be doing what's absolutely necessary and everything else will be ignored indefinitely postponed until later. So. There's that.


→ New food aversions: anything is fair game at any given moment. I'm just so picky. Normally I'm not picky at all, but now I'll get super hungry and only one thing will sound at all appetizing and the thought of anything else makes me want to retch. My strategy has been to buy mostly shelf-stable and freezable things because otherwise maybe cucumbers or bananas or roasted chicken will sound great at the supermarket and then I get home and can't stand it for a week and it just goes bad, which sucks. Basically eating is a real mystery.

→ New food cravings: My one solace has been toasted sourdough with butter and strawberry jam, which is always good and which I am always in the mood for. Also JAPANESE FOOD!!!! I can't have raw fish which is fine (I mean it's okay or whatever) but I've been DREAMING about chicken katsu donburi and tempura vegetables and prawn and ume shiso maki and sunomono and sdflkjdshjfhlkjdf

→ School is much, much harder when I'm constantly fatigued and just want to lie down, but I'm gonna try and get some homework done now. BLERGH.

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